Why is Poison (A B-SIDE) so much better than any of the other songs i've heard from Nothing Personal?

 This song really relates to a lot of issues ive been facing recently. I really like it.

If i'm a bad person, You don't like me,
Well i guess i'll make my own way
it's a circle i mean cycle,
I cant excite you anymore
Wheres your gavol? Your jury?
Whats my offence this time?
You're not a judge, but if you're gonna judge me
Sentence me to another life.
Dont wanna hear your songs
i don’t wanna feel your pain 
when you swear it’s all my fault 
cause you know we’re not the same 
oh we’re not the same 
the friends who stuck together 
we wrote our names in blood 
but i guess you can’t accept that the change is good 
it’s good it’s good 
you treat me just like another stranger 
well it’s nice to meet you sir 
i guess i’ll go, i best be on my way out 
you treat me just like another stranger 
well it’s nice to meet you sir 
i guess i’ll go, i best be on my way out
ignorance is your new best friend 
ignorance is your new best friend 
this is the best thing that could’ve happened 
any longer and i wouldn’t have made it 
it’s not a war no, it’s not a rapture 
i’m just a person but you can’t take it 
the same tricks that once fooled me 
they won’t get you anywhere 
i’m not the same kid from your memory 
now i can fend for myself
Dont wanna hear your sad songs
i don’t wanna feel your pain 
when you swear it’s all my fault 
cause you know we’re not the same 
oh we’re not the same 
the friends who stuck together 
we wrote our names in blood 
but i guess you can’t accept that the change is good 
it’s good it’s good 
you treat me just like another stranger 
well it’s nice to meet you sir 
i guess i’ll go, i best be on my way out 
you treat me just like another stranger 
well it’s nice to meet you sir 
i guess i’ll go, i best be on my way out
ignorance is your new best friend 
ignorance is your new best friend 

For just a girl she didn't do bad, for just a girl she did ok. She was never the best, never the prettiest and never the most loved. But she always had her self...or at least she had always hoped she did. Because although every other person in her life may have doubted her strength, her courage or even her passion, she herself believed in it more than anyone, and that is all she needed to move on.
Her life was a whirlwind of bad choices but she never intended it to be that way. She never wanted to end up the way she did, she never intended anything. She never thought ahead and she was never certain of the things she wanted, or even the person she was, or wanted to be. She tried it every different way but settled on the one that felt right. Happiness.
She may have pushed people away, lost loved ones or lost sight of who she was, who she was meant to be and what she saw her future like..but she found something that made all those things seem minute. She found a heart that beat twice as fast, a smile that actually looked like a smile, a sense of self that never before had she imagined possible. And although she may never get back the things she lost, the things she gained outshine them tenfold. 

George Bernard Shaw once wrote:

I think she found her hearts desire. I think her hearts desire is happiness. I think her hearts desire lies in peace, and in love, and in music and all the good things she sees in the world. I think her hearts desire is just that, hers. You may not understand it, and you may question her faith, but as long as you appreciate that i think there's no reason that you too cant find your own hearts desire.

I found out a lot about my life, my family and myself today. Things i never would have thought, things i was never aware of, things that have changed how i view my whole family.
Im not too sure how to deal with it. Its confusing.

I've never given Gabe Saporta much credit for anything. Yeah he has great hips, and can dance like a champ. And yeah he makes some fun music. But ive never really seen him as the type to be able to know exactly how i feel on things. But after reading his latest blog he changed that.

"it’s only human for us to want to keep a box of memories and pictures and things, and open them back up to have them transport us to that place we were when they were taken. But – and I know this is really fucked up—but I think when you do that, it makes you leave your emotions in the past and precludes you from truly immersing yourself in the present. I think that’s why people get old: Because they’ve left pieces of themselves behind. They forget how to be young because they have become nostalgic about their youth. And on the flip side of the same coin, have been forced to carry around their past baggage heavily on their shoulders. The past shackles us. And living in the present means letting go of the past; and not just letting go/getting through the bad, but forgetting the good as well. So that you may be open to new experiences without a barometer of past happiness; without judging today’s happiness according to past happiness"

amazing.

It really sucks that the thing that has given me the most happiness over the past year is gone. I'm really upset about it, but its bought me closer to so many people and its given me so many good memories and good times. Its the end of an era...a short lived one at that. Im so proud of everything that has happened and im glad to know my last memory was what it was. Playing frisbee in a parking lot with some of the best dudes i know.

RIP Teeter, Imma miss you guys so much.

I just need a shoulder to cry on. A heart to rely on. A friend when im in need, a friend to suceed.

Im so sorry.
But not really.